Those were the time

The relationship between us that I've always dream of, has become the tune of someone walking down the aisle alone. In this love tug-of-war, whether you love me or i love you. we have to choose ourselves. My choice is you, you are my choice.

I am scared that our happiness will end after only a second. I feel insecure now, i didnt know i think too much. I think i had already step too deeply in you. sometimes i wonder, will we ever can make it just like how we were last time. Those sweet memory we had before, your laughter, your touch and your smile. These days i see things had changed, we wasn't like those days anymore. Those days we had before, those moment we had before. I regret for what i had done, i know you said before it takes time to forget and take time to be like how we were last time.


Love is like a wound to me, i always endure this pain myself. Sometimes, i think i step too deeply into this relationship. i love you bi. And i am sorry for everything i did in the past. I am sorry because, i am not perfect.

When i was with you, i always think of the relationship between us that I've always dreamed of. It has been silenced in my dream. Mutual love is not easy from the start and love ain't just a one plus one thing. Sometimes, we won't always get results even if we work hard.

From all those photos we have taken, i can see how much i once love you before, i understand my mistake in the past i did to you. I had changed for you. I miss you, sometimes i cant stand why is my heart i can feel it is very pain, i can feel the pain. Its very painful, really painful. I am kind of moody in doing anything these days. All i do is just lying down here and think of you. Think back all those memory we both had before. All i can say to you is, i miss you. i have no opportunity to tell you each time when i see you. All i have now is nothing, i left nothing but you.

I don't know whether or not you know, all i can say is...
I miss you...

I hope we will be back like last time how we was...rather than being like this each time when we see each other..i hope things will be back like normal, back like last time. back like those time we had before.

i love you...

i miss those moment we had before

i know you are there to read this post..i already changed everything of me for you. i know what i did to you in the past, i am wrong. i am the one who should be blame not you bi..i am sorry, all i can say is, i already do my best to make it like last time how we were..those sweet memory we had before, those sweet memory we had, those laughter we had, and those happiness we had before when we were together.

i just want to make thing back to last time how we were, i am sorry i cant be perfect.

since the day i confess everything to you, i had changed alot you. when we made those promises, i really keep those promises i made for you.

i love you, i really do. i don't have to bother what third party said when they read this, because i don't care..i don't bother what people say about me. All i care is only you, because you are my everything. you are the most important person to me. not other people, i love you, if i ever lose you, mean i will lose everything, things will back to last time how i was before..

and i really don't hope that will happen. u asked me before, will i give up on us. the honest answer is no..because i love you, i will never give up. i really hope we will make it and pass through this obstacle we have.

bi, i love you. i am sincerely telling you, that i love you. i never lie to u since the day i confess everything to you. i really never, i had changed as u also can see.. i really changed, i changes for you. and its only you. only you can change me. i love you =(

once a clubber forever will be a clubber =)

BOO !! i am back at last, basically i didn't update my blog for a time because, i have to no time to go online and all. When im back home i will be on my bed straight cause i realize these whole month i have been going out till very late especially on friday and weekend. But still i am proud because i manage my time to do my revision at least for like few hours before i go to bed or anywhere i go, so yeah..cuz i duwan to be like those faichai just know how to slack around.

Neway, i realise i have been club alot these whole month. tired doh..im kind of lazy to blog actually. but since my blog is so dead i will update abit. been to MOS, POPPY, and Blanc le Club. Kind of enjoying actually cause since so long din club dy.

Also went yam cha and chilling with friends. duwan ta kei d. cut down. cause i think spending money on unnecessary money on cc is kind of stupid. well basically, not to say wat la, think maturely i rather spend on other thing. Basically, mostly we will takei once in a while depend on our mood. But most of the time will be chilling and all n when comes to ladies night till weekend will have plan and all. But not always la. cuz also abit sien d, always club club club.

mhmm, i know my blog is very dead, so i have ad updated d. well there it goes now...


me, alex and mohan @ Blanc Le Club
Cheryl, pammie and amira @ Blanc Le Club

i think i damn yeng lor, agree ah pam? lol
outside Blanc Le Club
we actually trying to spoile her picture.
pammie and me @ Blanc Le Club

alex, me, ryan and riki =)
i think i look abit tipsy =(
me and nicole @ MOS
1 stonner and 1 dunno wat to say... swt
me and jessica @ island cafe on her birthday

me and jes @ curve

snap 1

snap 2
pam, alex, jess, me @ curve
candid shot

pammie, alex me and my sayang of course =)
jess, alex, jess and babyval @ curve

photo taken after MOS =)





eh pundek ! give me the rabbit la...



ken, me, alex, ken de alwisk and hann lun

me and pammie :
we will always be the best friend now and ever =)

poser number 1 and poser number 2..



look at the star pammie...






hehe, pammie wat i can say about u is, once a poser forever will be a poser =) haha just kidding la.

before i end tis, to my babyval, all i want to say is i love u now and always. i will try my best to spend as much time as possible with u. and i will keep my promise to u. as i said, i ad stop those nonsense. neway, im going to do my revision and going to bed to soon. i love you always. mwah !

okie neway thats all for now..got to study and sleep soon d. ciao ciao..
damn lazy to blog actually. but have to update no choice if nto my blog look so dead like tat =)